“The thoughts that have torn me apart and the ones that have kept me going”

Pain. Hate. Loneliness. Anger. Resentment. These word defined me for so long. The pain I have felt from betrayal by the ones that have claimed to love me, has almost destroyed me.

I used to wake up with tears staining my pillow, crying out, but crying out for what? For who? I never knew. I have wanted to end it. End the pain. The rage burning deep in my soul, until one day I realized I am a survivor. I am a winner. I am worth the life that courses through my veins.

To this day I still feel the scars that never fully healed. I still feel the pain and all the betrayal, but I am learning to overcome. I am learning to love agin. I was lost, but I’m learning to find myself in the love I now feel. If anything is taken from this I want it to be one thing. At the end of the day no matter how hard life gets, no matter how many times you have been hurt, no matter how lost you feel... life is worth it. You are worth it.

When you are knocked down look to the sky and smile with the blood still in your teeth and stand back up. You can make it. YOU ARE A SURVIVOR!